IJN

Mummy is admitted in IJN, dia dalam Coranary Care Unit (CCU). banyak yang berlaku dr pagi sampai malam ni. sebagai kesimpulan atas all yang berlaku today, Dr kate her heart is weak. ya Allah, gelap sekejap dunia. erm.. she's trying to be tough for the sake of everybody (we can see it in her) but now we have to be tough for her as well. i am worried sick and the memories of arwah Mak in the hospital suddenly comes to mind. mase time arwah Mak meninggal, we had her just days before and we suddenly lost her. i don't know why but suddenly it feels like arwah Mak just left us yesterday. the pain of losing arwah Mak is suddenly there. then, during the period mummy kena admit and all, teringat pulak kat arwah uncle Ghani. he was always there for mummy. dia yang banyak sangat amik tau welfare mummy dulu. biasenye kalau mummy sakit, mesti dia first yang akan sampai. hari ni tengok pintu tak sampai-sampai. terlupa sekejap arwah dah takde. kali ni impact towards myself bila mummy jatuh sakit lain and it really is hitting hard on me. 

anyway, i am going to stay positive on this and be strong. nak stay kat sane tak boleh pulak. visiting hours limited and IJN tu cam strict kut. orang yang jage situ kate ape-ape diorang akan call dengan segare, if ada emergency ke ape. *tarik nafas* tak tau dah nak luah kat sape semua ni. emmm.. bak kate awak, saye kan dak kecik yang kuat but, i need you to help me go through all this and i hope you know that. 

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