last year

this day last year, i lost a beloved uncle whom i loved dearly. not having him around for my wedding feels like not having my father at my wedding. uncle ghani is more than an uncle to me - he is more like a father. he looked out for me, was there when i needed guidance and always think ahead for my future. people don't really know how much he meant to me. i didn't cry much when he passed away (i was too shocked) but as life goes on from time to time there are just so many things that reminded me of him.

the one thing that is the hardest for me to let go is my current job -

i got my current job from the newspaper he gave me - job classified section. he forced me to go to an interview in MAS. to be an air stewardess. which i didn't want to. MAS don't take people wearing tudung as an air stewardess. dia kate, 'pergi je lah'. so, to make him happy, i went (yeah, laugh, haha!). dengan tak tau jalan nye, nasib ade lah yang sudi membawa time tu. guess which part i failed.. *drum roll* - my height.. too short! boooooo! dalam hati terdetik juga nak dapat sebenarnya. kalau nak, kena bukak tudung lah. berat rase nak bukak tudung. pasal diorang ni tak strict sgt pun pasal tinggi. ade staff MAS cakap, 'awak ni pakai tudung, nak jadi, kena bukak tau'.

so, lepas tu balik rumah belek2 newspaper yang uncle bagi. there was an opening in WWF for programme trainee. tried my luck. was late for my first interview - semua sebab kalut tapi nasib itu pun ade yang sudi membawa. then after first interview, was called for a second interview (ini pergi sendiri kut). so, the rest is history. i have been in WWF for 2 years plus now. ade terfikir nak quit and find a new job but itu lah, susah nak let go. this was something my 'dad' did for me.

well, yang dah pergi tetap pergi. kita yang hidup ni boleh sedekah yassin and al-fatihah. hidup kene teruskan bukan? memories i have of him will always remain in my heart. i miss you uncle ghani. i miss you so much. al-fatihah.

his favourite song (tiap-tiap kali dgr confirm meleleh) - 

p.s: one year ago, this date, patut nya ade kat Jepun, buat kerja gila. how differently things turned out kan. kite tak tau future kite. banyak yang kita tak tau.