Monday 29 June 2015

birthdays (2015)

hee. so, we turned 2, 29 and 28 this year. cepatnya dah 2 tahun, rasa macam baru je habis pantang. haha. melampau. maybe macam baru je celebrate 1st birthday last year. haih! we had a mini morning celebration, a picnic and lunch at Rashaad's (same-date-different-year twin, hee) house for Zahraa, zoo day for husby and tiup lilin for me (nak pergi jalan tak dapat - husby kerja on that day plus, dah puasa kan, huuu).

it is all about you baby - 28th, 30th and 31st May

Tuesday 16 June 2015

father figure

father's day is coming soon. never really did celebrate it.

being a father is being so much more than someone calling you dad. same thing about being a mom. it means being there whenever your child needs you. sometimes it might be just for him/her to show you something silly or telling you things in her own way. i clearly have some issue with my childhood. i pray that she'll never have to go through what i went through.

yes, i have a father. yes, he was there mostly when i was small and less as my age progressed. even though he was around, i was raised by my mother. she thought me almost everything about life. she was my everything and it was a huge lost for me when she passed. i even thought twice about staying here with him. i never had this close relationship with my father like most daughters do. no, i don't intend to change how things are with my father. i can't. he is just different. years have gone by, many things happened in between and he is just someone i call ayah.

last week at my uncle's, i saw my uncle treating his 27 years old daughter like a little girl - i want my daughter to have that sort of relationship with her dad.

to the father of my child - 

be more than a dad
guide her close to Allah
be someone who listens 
respect her needs and wants
be honest
spend time with her 
be there for her 
teach her patiently 
provide for her
never walk out on her

i will do the same, in sya Allah.

Friday 12 June 2015

zoo negara

semalam pergi zoo negara. tak tau lah yang sebenarnya mak ke anak yang excited. haha. lama dah tak pergi zoo ni. ada dalam 4 tahun. lama dah tu. dulu ada lah setahun sekali and setahun 2 kali. macam gian kan pergi zoo? entah, bukan suka tengok binatang terkurung tapi suka tengok binatang. nak kerja dalam hutan tak dapat green light dulu walaupun dah dapat kerja. ni dah tak kerja, hutan pun dah tak jumpa. huu. sedih gak lah. so, semalam we brought Zahraa to her first zoo trip sempena husby punya birthday (thank you Nira for the tickets!). nampak lah dia try relate gambar yang pernah tengok dalam buku/tv and toy dengan real life. nampak muka dia pelik pun ada. dalam buku/tv or toy kan binatang tak lah besar mana. hehe. it was a fun day, sampai ada idea nak buat list of zoos to visit in the future. habiskan zoo kat Malaysia dulu lah kut. biasa tak lah penat mana, kali ni penat habis - tak bawa stroller/carrier - gigih sangat, malam tu terus k.o habis. penat layan anak (walaupun banyak daddy dia je dukung, haha). dulu orang layan kita pergi zoo, tak tau penat. hamek kau, baru tau penat dia macam mana. haha.