recap of 2011

2011 has thought me a whole bunch of stuff. good and bad. this year is definitely a drama year for  me. reflecting on the whole year, the main lesson learned:

patience - patience is a virtue. islamic point of view - sabar itu separuh dari iman. banyak kn separuh dari iman. anyone who has known me for quite some time would know i have no patience at all. i get angry in a split second (i still do sometimes) but i can say maybe 5 or 6 times this year. that is a huge accomplishment for myself. Allah telah mengajar erti kesabaran. memang betul, banyak sangat dugaan tahun ni. dari segi kerja, family, kawan and life itself. banyak yang telah diuji. when i think about it again, i am thankful. its a huge lesson for me. from patience i learn to compromise. i learn to listen, think and judge. i also learn that a moment of patience at the time of anger saves one from years of regret & sorrow. being patience takes you a long way. you gain a lot and you see the positive side of things. you learn to control your feelings and trust me, you won't regret it at all.

meanwhile, what i am still learning:

trust - i used to believe in people. i used to believe in them without any second guessing or the feeling that i've been lied to. but things change. big time. there is a saying that trust is like an eraser, it gets smaller and smaller after every mistake. i believed in that. at one point in 2011, i got hit by a really painful event in life. its either make it or break it. then i read a story on 'why do you believe in Allah?' and it got me thinking. its the same concept with trust. you can't see trust but you can believe in it. you believe in Allah and Allah knows best. so, why worry. talk to Allah more. Dia pendengar setia and Dia tau ape yang terbaik. i lean on no one at one point accept Allah. however, i have to admit that i am still learning. trust is still an issue for me. just a little note for us - Firman Allah swt yang bermaksud,
"Wahai orang-orang yang beriman! Jauhilah kebanyakan dari sangkaan kerana sesungguhnya sebahagian dari sangkaan itu adaah dosa; dan jangalah kamu mengintip atau mencari-cari kesalahan dan keaiban orang; dan janganlah setengah kamu mengumpat setengahnya yang lain. Adakah seseorang dari kamu suka memakan daging saudaranya yang telah mati? (Jika demikian keadaan mengumpat) maka sudah tentu kamu jijik kepadanya. Dan bertaqwalah kamu kepada Allah; sesusngguhnya Allah Penerima taubat, lagi Maha mengasihani." - Al-Hujuraat Ayat 12

so, i sum up my lesson learned for the year 2011 with Alhamdullilah and huge thank you to Allah.