okay, this has been pending for years noe (yelah, sejak belum kahwin, belum kenal suami sampai kawin and ada anak, that is how long it has been pending). mula-mula tujuan nak berhenti lain, sekarang lain. i finally made my decision that i never thought i would make before i am 30 years old. memang tawakal habis dah ni. i finally quit my full time job last month, tendered on the 20th of March.
it is never easy to quit a job. banyak tanggungjawab yang nak kena fikir. lagi-lagi yang guna credit card ni. berhenti bukan sebab suka-suka tetapi nak jaga tanggungjawab yang paling besar dalam hidup. some might say, 'boleh ke dia hidup?' and some might say, 'best nya, that is my dream job'. i am not too sure what to think of it. berbelah bahagi sebenarnya. takut ada, tak sabar ada.
decision was made pasal tak sanggup nak hantar anak mana-mana, boleh depress kut. then ada sekali tinggal Zahraa, dia nangis tak berhenti sampai muntah. itu tinggal dengan family and bukan stranger. my heart just shattered, really. so, that makes my decision firmer. thus, the best decision i have ever made this year, so far.
yes, suami tak berapa nak supportive. yes, family tak berapa nak supportive. diri sendiri kena yakin. pengorbanan ini berbaloi. yes, tak dapat online shopping suka hati. yes, tak dapat makan apa nak suka hati. yes, tak dapat beli kasut yang berkenan macam tu je. yang penting kena cekal, deal with semua orang and be strong. tak cuba tak tau. kita kena positive and yakin Allah sentiasa ada.
an article about mums who quit their job -
Quitting Job for Kids; Will I Turn a Nobody?
