father figure

father's day is coming soon. never really did celebrate it.

being a father is being so much more than someone calling you dad. same thing about being a mom. it means being there whenever your child needs you. sometimes it might be just for him/her to show you something silly or telling you things in her own way. i clearly have some issue with my childhood. i pray that she'll never have to go through what i went through.

yes, i have a father. yes, he was there mostly when i was small and less as my age progressed. even though he was around, i was raised by my mother. she thought me almost everything about life. she was my everything and it was a huge lost for me when she passed. i even thought twice about staying here with him. i never had this close relationship with my father like most daughters do. no, i don't intend to change how things are with my father. i can't. he is just different. years have gone by, many things happened in between and he is just someone i call ayah.

last week at my uncle's, i saw my uncle treating his 27 years old daughter like a little girl - i want my daughter to have that sort of relationship with her dad.

to the father of my child - 

be more than a dad

guide her close to Allah

be someone who listens 

respect her needs and wants
be honest

spend time with her 

be there for her 

teach her patiently 

provide for her

never walk out on her

i will do the same, in sya Allah.